Optimism, as defined by wikipedia, is an outlook on life such that one maintains a view of the world as a positive place. Well, I used to tell my friends to view their life in an optimistic way. I told them to hold on with what they believe. “Never give up!” Such a cliche I used to say. Believing that people and events around you are inherently good.
But why do I tend to give up if there’s a word optimism? Why do I have to say “half-empty” (the pessimist’s way) if I always push my friends to sa “half-full”? Such questions which really confused me and continously confusing me to the point that I dont know myself anymore. Will I make sense if I drown myself into the pit of nothingness?
I used to be a weak person when I was still in the range of 13-16 years old. When I entered college I gained confidence to face the trials which will enter my life. But then that strength gradually decreased, I became hysterical whenever I encounter such difficulties (well, actually it’s only minor and can be resolved). I am really shallow that time, before my friends knew every details of my worries but now I’m not that transparent anymore. Conspiracy has been my tradestyle nowadays to achieve such satisfaction. Alluring to my ears, it rushed towards my brain until my systems totally experienced a shut-down (It’s like they were saying, “Ooops, bye now we have to go, its all up to you..”). Damn my systems they fail to help me in times of crisis. Well, damn me I guess because I’m the one who is responsible with my systems.
Oh my gosh, here we go again, with this typical line “I promise to change, to be optimistic and have a positive outlook in my life.”. Dear folks, I always say that abused line but still I’m back with my pitiful style of leading my life. Hey, I still need guidance, I need to listen with such advices. Now I’m trying to escape with this labyrinth of negative things. I really mean to change, change for the best. I dont want to drown myself with the vagueness of life.
I need that word “optimism”. I have to view life as a positive roller coaster ride, once you are finished with that ride there’ll be no regrets because you have tried that ride.
